Wednesday, June 25, 2008

NUMB

I am still in shock, so if this post doesn't make sense, I apologize in advance.

I was out of my office for a couple hours today and when I got back I noticed that I had missed calls from my mom. Before I even got a chance to call her back, she called me again...and she was upset. See, last week my aunt found out she had some sort of lump in her lung. They went in on Friday and did a biopsy of it and today she went in at 10am to find out the results. Definitely didn't turn out like we had planned. We were thinking it would just be a growth that could easily be removed. After all, my aunt isn't a smoker, not a drinker, nothing like that.

We were very wrong. Turns out my aunt has lung cancer. The growth in her lung is a carcinoid tumor, which is cancerous like I just said. They will have to go in and do a lobectomy. The thought of her losing part of her lung crushes me, but at the same time, I am happy to know they will be getting the cancer out of her. At this point, they are not sure how invasive any of this is. We don't really know much of anything other than the cancer. Now we are awaiting to see when her next appointment is and when she will meet with the surgeon.

My mom is a mess. Her and my aunt are so close (almost a year apart). I asked how my aunt was doing and and I guess my aunt cried and said that she was scared. This breaks my heart. My aunt is always the optimistic, upbeat, always seeing the bright side of everything. Right now, I don't see the bright side either.

I am leaving work. I am going to go give my mom a hug and I am going to maybe go up and see my aunt. It is crazy that she was at my house last night to see it for the first time...and she had it and we didn't even know it. I just pray that it can be removed and she will have a clean bill of health.

5 comments:

Misguided Mommy said...

i loe you. i'm thinking of you and praying for your aunt! let me know if there is ANYTHING at all i can do for you! anything k!

Patty said...

Steph, I am so sorry to hear about your aunt. I can't believe that your family is also touched by this disease. My heart and my prayers go out to you and your family. If you need anything at all please let me know. Just know that as long as it is removed more and moe people are beating this disease. I love you lots!
XOXO

angie said...

I'm definitely thinking of you!! I can't believe in our little group of blogging friends there are three of us that have had some form of disease in our family. Try to keep a positive outlook on this and help your aunt do the same. That's half the battle! Love ya!!!

Megan said...

Praying for you and sending your whole family healing thoughts. Hugs. xoxo

Dyan said...

Oh Steph.... OMG... I am so sorry for your family..... god, you and I should really lean on each other; cause I think it can help.... this is such an aweful thing to happen to not only your dear aunt, but your poor mom and the rest of the family. My thoughts and prayers (and tears) are with you babygirl. Call/write anytime... I am hear as your shoulder....