Friday, November 30, 2007

Picture Meme

We were all tagged by Patty for this Meme. So fun and such a good idea.

1) Age at next birthday:
2) Place of Birth:

3) Place I want to Visit:

4) Nickname:

5) Favorite Place:

6) My Favorite Things:

7) Favorite Food:

8) Favorite Color:

Thursday, November 29, 2007

So Spoiled!!!!

That's right, I got someone to bring me Taco Bell. My little belly is now super satisfied...even if I am a fat ass for eating it!

Very Tired Today

This just goes to show you how laid back I really am:

You are Barefoot!

You're a total free spirit, go with the flow girl
You can't be restricted by shoes for very long
And unsurprisingly, the same goes for men
Your match is out there - and he's as carefree as you are

I found this one amusing:

What Guys Think of Your Long Straight Hair...

Sexy, desirable, and hard to please.
A girl who's so stunning that you've got them lined up around the block!

This is true for the most part. It didn't take me long to fall in love with Eli though!

You Follow Your Head

You're rational, collected, and logical.
Generally, it takes you quite a while to fall in love.
In fact, you've even been accused of being very picky.
While you're cool, you're not ice cold.
You just know what you want, and don't mind waiting to get it.

Ugh, this day is dragging and I am just ready to go home and go to sleep. I am definitely a tired kid.

Absolutely Starving!!!!!!!!

I am not joking. I didn't eat last night. Was busy until late and then didn't want to eat late because it is so bad for you. So now I am sitting here at my desk feeling like I am going to puke because I am so hungry. And the only thing that sounds good to me = Taco Bell. I know, I am weird, but seriously, that is all that my belly is telling me that it wants. It's only 10:45am people!!!!! I tried eating some wheat thins and peanut butter, but that didn't taste good at all and I still just want the shit food. :(

Only 3%

This makes me want to travel more and see more things! Guess I better start saving up.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

It's Turning

Yep, it's definitely turning into a long day. The morning went by rather fast. I was awake and happy and things were just moving right along. Now that afternoon has come, I am starting to slow down and not be so awake and get a little sleepy. I am however still very happy. But the rest...definitely fading. I could easily curl up in a little ball and just take a little nap. Maybe it being quiet around the office isn't helping much. Who knows.

I still have a sore throat. This morning it felt worse than it was yesterday, but it is alright right now. Other than that, but my neck is really starting to hurt me again. Those injections I got this last time didn't last near as long as the other time. I just got some pain pills yesterday and they are starting the process and paperwork in order to get me an epidural. The doctor is saying that is the only other option I have right now other than surgery and my doctor says I am too young for that. Not to mention, the thought of surgery scares the shit out of me. But then again, so does the epidural. I just need to do something though because I get so agitated, irritated, and cranky when my neck and back are hurting me. I shouldn't have to feel like this. Stupid lady that hit me!!

Oh and right before Eli and I went on our cruise, I had to do a deposition for the accident. There were a ton of questions that they asked that were so over the top and stupid. So much of it didn't relate to the accident at all. And they really got stuck on the fact that I used to play volleyball. They asked if I had ever been injured and I told them no. Cause truthfully, I never got hurt playing. Then I was asked if I ever got a bruise. I said yes and that turned into me and some crazy attorney telling me that a bruise is an injury and when you dive you and "throwing" yourself on the floor and hurting your body and so on. Oh this lady had no clue what she was talking about and I just wanted to scream at her. But I couldn't and I didn't. Turns out, they sent my medical records to a doctor and after he "reviewed" them he determined that my injuries I have an all my pain are "SPORTS RELATED". That's no joke. Such an idiot. That doesn't matter though in my situation cause that doctor has never seen me and is no where near as credible as my doctor. So that's where I'm at for now.

Two Good Nights

The last two nights have been such great nights - sleep wise. I have slept so great and not only that, Eli has been super cuddly. The night before last, he literally wouldn't let go of me. I later found out that he was having bad dreams and just wanted to be close, but it was such a great feeling to have him right there. There was no moving away from him at all. He is so cute some times. Then last night, I would try to roll away and he would reach out and grab me and pull me back to him. It was so cute and so nice and just made me love him that much more.

What was even better is before he has left the last couple morning he has just come and grabbed me and held me and kissed me. Such a sweetie I tell you. And it just starts my day off so good. Everyone at work has mentioned how happy I am. It's such a great feeling. I am definitely a lucky girl.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Wasting Time

I think I might be getting sick again. I don't know what is going on. I know there are tons of different little bugs going around, but I just don't want it. When we went to bed last night, I noticed that my throat was a little tight and then a couple times during the night I woke up and it was a little sore. And today, it has been bothering me just a little. Ugh. At least I wasn't sick for Thanksgiving. Maybe I caught something from the kids. Little Seth had a stuffy nose on Friday that lasted through the weekend and poor little Swae was coughing. I felt so bad for them. I don't like when they are sick.

Hopefully I am able to fight it.

In other news, was in another office all morning training on a different job. I find it to be something that is easy to pick up and catch on to. Things that have only been shown to me one time I am able to do on my own the next time they come around. It is really nice learning something new. Plus it is nice just being in a different office and a different environment.

So, it's been a good day. It's gone by fairly fast and I was able to go have lunch with my honey...always a treat. What's even better is that we have the kiddos tonight. Always something to look forward to and put a smile on my face.

Monday, November 26, 2007

Weekend Recap

It was a GREAT first Thanksgiving with my "new" family. I seriously had such a great time. And I think that Eli and the kids did too. We love each and every time we have the kids with us. We had to have the kiddos to their mom at 3:30 on Thanksgiving, but were able to do "dinner" with them while we had them. I swear they are the cutest things ever. Seth is such a ham when he is eating. Oh how I love them. After we dropped them off, it was off to spend the evening with my whole family. It was really a nice time. It is so amazing to me all the food that we have since my family is so big (there were over 30 people there). The table was insanely filled with food. I wish I had a picture of it to show...and that wasn't even dessert or appetizers.

Friday we got up, did some cleaning and before we knew it, we were off to get the kids to spend our weekend with them. We were super lucky and got to get them at 1pm, so we had a good portion of Friday with them instead of just the evening. The rest of the weekend was jam packed. We literally did something every day. It was a lot of family time and a lot of fun for the kids.

It was so nice all of us being together. I am seriously one lucky girl.

Meme - Suspicion

Shannon tagged me for a meme. Things that make me suspicious. This really isn't as easy as I thought it would be. I would have written it last week, but I just couldn't really come up with anything.

*whispering - I hate it. It fucks with my head. Even if I know that without a shadow of a doubt I am not being talked about, I still think that I am missing's so weird.
*closed doors - what is going on behind them, being said
*stuffing - it just looks like shit and doesn't seem right. I seriously can't eat it. Plus I hate mushy stuff. YUCK
*I can't sleep if other people are awake. I feel like I might miss out on something.
*where the hell all my money goes. seems my check disappears as soon as I freaking get it.

Damn this is so not easy. Ummm....

I really am going to have to think on this more. But in the mean time, I tag Jen, Angie, Megan, Babba, and Patty.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007


I am looking forward to Thanksgiving this year. And love the fact that I get to spend most of my day with the kiddos and Eli. I couldn't think of anything better. Then, after we drop them off to their mom, we get to go eat a bunch of yummy food with my family. It's going to be a great time. Then we get the kids all weekend and have all sorts of fun stuff on the agenda. I am so lucky to have such greatness and happiness in my life.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving and long weekend. Don't eat too much!!!

Missing Comment

Shannon and Jen - trust me, I wish I still had that comment too because I really think you would have been as amused as me. I just wanted to be able to add what I wrote this morning before having it up there, and stupid yahoo deleted my trash on my email. Sorry girls. Next time I will leave it in the inbox so this doesn't happen.

Oh and Jen, your comment was funny shit. Thanks!!! :)

Just A Girl

Unfortunately, your comment is lost that you left yesterday. I wanted to comment on it before just allowing it to sit on my blog, but somehow it is even deleted out of my email. Anyhow, I just wanted to thank you for taking the time to come and visit my blog and taking the time to comment, even if negatively. The fact that you posted the comment on a blog that was talking about good things in life and were trying to bring me down seriously amuses me.

What have I done in the last year to do anything bad in my life??? In the last year I have done nothing but improve my life - get rid of negative people, good jobs, good friends, and awesome boyfriend and the big bonus two wonderful kids. Yep, I am a horrible person.

I just wanted to say that if you think that your negative and vague comments are going to bring me down or upset me or even affect my life at all, you have another thing coming. If anything, it makes me stronger and makes me realize how many sad, negative, and immature so many people are in this world.

Friday, November 16, 2007

Super Thankful

* family
* my honey and his two precious kiddos
* for all the good in my life
* for it being Friday
* for next week being a short week
* and then 4 days off
* having lunch with my honey today (always helps with a smile)
* getting to meet baby Codi after work!!!
* oh, and seeing Shannon too (ha, kidding)
* that my day is almost over
* that I get to drink tonight
* my lovely friends
* all you lovely bloggers/readers

Thursday, November 15, 2007

YAY Shannon!!!!!

I will be thinking about you in the morning! I can't believe that you are going to have a baby tomorrow morning. I am so very excited for you and will be sure to call/text (hopefully you answer) so that I can stop by and see you guys either on my lunch or right after work...if you are up to it!!!!!

Good luck with the shaving and all that crap and I hope you get a little bit of sleep (yes, I know, that is a stretch!).

I still can't get over the fact that Codi is getting welcomed into the world tomorrow!!!!!!!! =)


And not for lack of eating. I have eaten two slices of cinnamon raisin toast, a lean cuisine, a slice of cheese, and not moving on to crackers with peanut butter on them! I swear it is like my stomach is endless! I could just eat everything right now. I think I am going to try drinking a few glasses of water to help satisfy this annoying feeling. Maybe some juice, maybe something...anything. Something has to help at this point.

And no, I am not pregnant ASSHOLES! ;)

Bee Movie

It is so freaking cute. It really is. I really enjoyed watching it. I loved that there was a lot of adult humor in it. The kids really liked it too. So, if anyone is looking for something fun to do, go see it!


It is so cold in my office. You would think that since we are in charge or making everyone else warm or cooler, that our office would be a steady temperature. Um, no. Not so much. Instead I have to sit here at my desk working wearing a damn jacket. How the hell does that happen!?!?!?!

Not even my hot coffee is helping warm me up!

Angie Tagged Me

4 dishes I like to cook:
1) spaghetti
2) taco's
3) chicken broccoli casserole
4) fettuccine alfredo

4 qualities I love in people:
1) honesty
2) sense of humor
3) good hearted
4) loyalty

4 places I have been:
1) Cabo
2) Florida
3) Texas
4) Colorado

4 things in my room:
1) bed
2) dresser
3) clothes
4) gun under bed (Eli's)

4 dirty words I like:
1) shit
2) fuck
3) jerk face
4) asshole!

And there is no one left to tag. So it ends with me! :)

Know what I hate?????

When you expect your night to go one way and then it goes the exact opposite. I really do. I was so looking forward to my night last night and then so many things came up and went the complete other way that I thought that they would. No, we weren't fighting or anything, it just didn't turn out like I expected. And you are always let down when things go other than how you thought they would. At least that is how it is for me.

Oh well. Today is a new day.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Not Feeling It

One night last week, Eli and I were doing who knows what and something got brought up about weight and he just so happened to tell me I am losing weight and my butt is getting smaller. First of all, I don't feel any different. I don't feel smaller, don't feel like I have lost weight (don't have a scale to weigh myself), nothing seems to be fitting any different. I feel just the same as always. Not to mention, my jeans still fit pretty snug on my ass. So I doubt that is where I would lose it from. I don't think my ass has ever gotten smaller. That has always been a constant which is good since I have ZERO boobs.

Anyhow, while we were at my parents house on Saturday, my sister pipes up, "have you lost weight?" Um, does it look like it because it sure as hell doesn't feel like it! My sister is so cute though. She is always telling me how good I look and so on. It makes me feel good, but I never know if she is being honest or not.

Whatever it is, they must be seeing something completely different than me!!!

First Award!!!!

I have been awarded by Patty! My very first one. I feel so special. What a great way to start my day! Thanks girl!!! I feel very privileged. Since reading Patty, I have learned so much and have found someone that I have a lot in common with. She is such a wonderful, caring, big hearted person. I have gained a friend and am truly inspired by her and love so much the advice she gives me and the kind words that she shares.

Shameless says: Those people I've given this award to are encouraged to post it on their own blogs; list three things they believe are necessary for good, powerful writing; and then pass the award on to the five blogs they want to honour, who in turn pass it on to five others, etc etc. Let's send a roar through the blogosphere!

The 3 things I think are necessary for writing are:

1) Honesty - you have to be able to be honest about things that are happening in your life and be able to share that with others and not censor it just for your readers. You need to be able to accept all that happens in your life and be able to share freely. I have found through my blog that I am able to be a more honest person and not try to hide the things that go on just so that people don't judge me. Judge me or not, I am who I am.

2) Humor - I find there are so many things that go on in my life that make me laugh and I just hope that by writing, I am able to bring a smile to other people's faces. Without laughter, life wouldn't be all that fun at all. It is healthy to laugh at yourself and it's nice to find humor when reading other people.

3) Openness - the more open you are, the more people are able to connect with you and enjoy reading what you write. They are able to relate, emphasize, and sympathize. Not to mention, you are viewed as a real person that not only has good times, but their fair share of bad times.

Now I get to hit 5 people:

1) Jen from Lost in Translation - she is a wonderful person and I enjoy reading her all the time. The way that she expresses herself is unlike anyone else I have ever read. I love reading about all her past experiences and even more enjoy reading about her life as it is happening.

2) Angie from Faith Trust and Pixie Dust - a new friend and someone that always has something positive to say no matter how shitty my situation. She just got engaged and her posts have been great to read. I am looking forward to all the wedding planning.

3) Megan from Yellow Polka Dotted Slugs - I enjoy reading Megan. She is someone that is so heartfelt and loves her family and friends so much. She shows so much compassion in her writing and I love it. Plus, she takes awesome pictures!! :)

4) Lindsey from Adventures of Lindz, in high heels of course - I really enjoy reading her writing. I love the way that she expresses herself and I welcome all advice and comments that come from her.

5) Babba from Babba Unknown - She has had a lot going on in her life and the fact that she is opening up and willing to share her story is very respectable. I am so happy that she is getting her life back on track and all is going well.

Friday, November 9, 2007

I thought I was doing better

Yes, I woke up this morning after sleeping all afternoon, taking meds and passing out all night and sleeping so well feeling a little better. I don't feel 100%, but I also don't feel like I just can't make it through the day. I got ready and got to work and my boss took one look at me and told me that I still didn't look good...that I look like shit. She is so nice! I didn't know that I didn't look good. She explained that she could just tell by looking at me that I still don't feel the greatest. It was funny. If I didn't like her or have the relationship I do with her, I would have definitely taken the comment personal.

Oh and the sweetest thing was, I got to work and right on my desk was a box of DayQuil pills. My co-worker, she is so cute, got them for me on her way to work to help me get through the day. How thoughtful huh?? I thought so. I took a couple, but they really don't seem to be making much of a difference. I will take a couple more here in a little bit and hope that helps.

Thursday, November 8, 2007


I am still feeling like super shit today. So much shit. I feel so bad and am so miserable, that I think I am going to leave work and go home for the rest of the day. The thought of a nap...being curled up wiht my blanket in my comfy sweats and sweatshirt. Yes, definitely better than sitting here at work and dying.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007


Still. I am so over being sick and not being able to breath like a normal person out my nose. I am tired of talking funny and tired of sneezing. I have been sneezing all damn day!!!! I just hope that I am able to kick this cold soon because I am more than over it.

Oh and do I have a rant that I will be posting on the Hidden Blog about something that happened last night...and no, nothing to do with Eli, the kids, or anything like that. It's something else and I would really like some advice on what to do or how to think because right now, I am left feeling...very...deflated on the situation. Everything else is great though, other than being sick.

Ok, back to work!

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Today is Definitely...

No better than yesterday. Shit. There really isn't anything to be done. I have been caught up for almost three hours. Just makes for such a long day. And you sit here thinking about all the other stuff that you could be doing instead of sitting at work with absolutely nothing to do. Oh well, I am getting paid.

On another note, I am going to get my hair done this afternoon. This will be the first time since before I went to Cabo. That was in April. Yea, that long ago. I am so not good at keeping up with that kind of thing. I am lucky to keep up with my nails...that happen to look like super shit right now! Oh well, what can you do.

Let's see, what else? I am caught up on every one's blogs. All bills are paid. Yep, there is really nothing else and nothing to do. BLAH!

Monday, November 5, 2007

F-ing SLOW!

I wish I had more to write about since I am sitting here at work bored out of my mind and have absolutely nothing at all to do. But no! I only have stuff to write and talk about on the days when I am so busy and have zero time to write and tell all. Then by the time I have time to write, half the shit I wanted to talk about I can't even remember and makes no sense anyway.

So instead, I catch up on every one's blogs and am left bored again and nothing to do. I even came to work late and left for a long lunch. And it didn't help at all. Why does work have to be so slow right now????

Stupid Cold!

I have managed not to get sick for so long and this weekend a cold finally hit me. My throat started hurting on Saturday night. It was ok yesterday, just a little scratchy. Then, last night when I went to bed, it got bad. It hurt so much and would get so dry sleeping that I couldn't even swallow when I tried, which by the way is freaky! Oh well. I haven't had this for a while and hopefully it will go away soon. I can stick it out!

Had a good, relaxing weekend. We didn't really do much other than some grocery shopping, cleaning, stuff around the house. But it was all stuff that needed to be done and we were able to spend some down time together rather than always being on the go. It was nice.

Oh! We went to see Saw IV Saturday night. Holy SHIT! I don't know what I was expecting, but I sure wasn't expecting what we saw. Now I can't wait for them to hurry up and get on with another one so I can figure out more. It was nuts. For those who have weak stomachs or don't like scary movies, DON'T go see this movie. I have recently got into scary movies and I am hooked on all the Saw ones. This one way by far the worst yet as far as being scary and all the blood. I think I will need to watch it at least one other time because I am sure there are some hidden messages that I missed. Such a good movie!

Friday, November 2, 2007

So, I just realized that I sucked ass at blogging last month. Absolutely pathetic. It is only the second day of the month and I am almost at half the posts that I posted last month.

I'm a shit. No wonder all you were ripping my ass! I deserved it!!!


My sister drew her first deer tag this year. She was so excited. I come from a family of hunters. Everyone hunts and even the young girls are getting into it. My cousin who is a year younger than my sister got her second deer this year. My sister has always gone on the hunts, but has never put in for her own tag for the first time and was lucky enough to draw. She spent hours and hours practicing shooting. And let me tell you, that girl is a good shot.

We went two weeks ago...the weekend of the 19th. My parents and her left early Thursday morning with my grandpa. I didn't go til Friday morning because I didn't want to take too much time off work. Her tag was in the Rubies which are right outside Elko. I have never been there before, but have heard how gorgeous it is from Kylen because his family has a house there. So finally, I got my chance to go. I rode there with my aunt, uncle, and cousin. It was a long drive, but once there, it was all worth it.

This is what I saw when we got there Friday night looking over Ruby Valley. It was so beautiful!

Another angle of the valley from where we were staying.

Here is my dad and my papa going over hunting tactics. My dad is my favorite person ever and my papa is awesome! He is so smart when it comes to hunting since he has been doing it so long that you learn so much from him.

Here is my mom and my aunt doing breakfast dishes after the morning hunt.

Me and my papa getting ready to go up on the hill to spot for my sister. We saw a crazy amount of deer!

Oh yes, that is snow that you see. It snowed off and on ALL damn day on Saturday. It was crazy insane. But oh so beautiful seeing it up on the mountains and the way it made the valley look.

My uncle and papa...always talking hunting. It's so funny to be around these guys on hunting trips.

Here is the sunset from Saturday night. It is pretty, but not as pretty as how it really was standing outside, not seeing it as a picture. (Megan, you were my inspiration on my scenery pictures)

And this is the mountain Sunday morning after the snow on Saturday. Oh so freaking beautiful!!! I would love to have a place in the Rubies. This place was literally breath taking in so many ways. To look at this picture and then know first hand how many animals are up there and around there is just amazing. The experience was awesome.

Here is my beautiful sister. She didn't get her deer. I felt so bad for her because she cried and felt like a failure. This was a hard area for her to hunt. There were so many hunters in the area and they screwed up EVERY situation for her. Not to mention, she is short and to stand and shoot and get a good shot with there being brush...not gonna happen. But she had fun and she learned a lot. I was so thankful I was able to be there with her. She is such an amazing person and a great sister. I just love her!

Dad and Uncle Mike cleaning stuff up before we head home. That house (doesn't even show half of it), is where we stayed.

Another view of the valley before we left for home.

The trip was amazing. I love spending time with my family. And I love to be outdoors. I so love beautiful places. I wish I would have got better pictures of how many different colors there were on the mountains with all the changing leaves. It was so serene that you could just sit outside, even with it being freezing and just look at your surrounding. The time away came at a much needed time and is something I will keep with me forever.

Crazy Dream

I can't believe I am actually sharing this on my blog, but here it goes. And no, its not sexual. So don't get your hopes up.

I don't really remember how the dream started, but what I do remember was being pregnant...very much pregnant. Big, cute belly and all. I remember having all the feelings that I read that Jen and Shannon have and everything. The dream was SO FREAKING REAL! I remember going to the hospital to deliver and they did an ultrasound and told me that I wasn't going to be able to deliver natural because the sweet baby inside me had the cord wrapped around her neck and was holding onto it. I remember this plain as day! So, c-section it was. I wasn't worried about anything other than having a scar. I know that in real life, the scar isn't big, but in my dream the scar was HUGE and it freaked me out bad. But the result...a beautiful baby girl. I'm not lying, she was gorgeous. Dark hair and just perfect in all aspects that a baby could be.

This isn't where the dream ended though. I was a mom for quite a while.

Then, I woke up. And I was like, "what the fuck was that all about???" Then forced myself to go back to sleep. Normally when I do this, I don't remember my dreams, which is probably why I don't remember the very beginning or the end that much. But the middle, plain as day I tell you. It was one of the most real dreams I have ever had in my life. It was insane.

So yea, not to sure why I would have such a dream like that. But I do know, it was a little random and a little weird. But the baby...oh so freaking cute!

Makes Zero Sense

I am dragging my ass with tiredness. And there really is no excuse for it. I'm not pregnant, I didn't go to bed late, I am not hung over...nothing. In fact, my old ass went to be at 9pm. Yep that's right 9pm and I am still tired today. It just doesn't make much sense to me really. I realize I got up at 4:45am, but that is still a good amount of sleep to be getting. But NNNOOOOOOOOO, I get to still drag ass and wait for the day to be over and day dream about taking a lovely nap that I would so love! That and get all my shit done so that I can post more. I had the craziest dream the other night and I want to share it. It weirds me out. So I am gonna go and get my work done and be back this afternoon to share my dream!!!