Friday, December 28, 2007

Sad but Happy

It's a little bit of a sad day today. A lady that I have worked with (and absolutely adore) since I was 17, is retiring. I am so happy for her because this is truly a blessing for her and will be so good for her. But at the same time, it is quite sad. It is going to be so weird not having her around anymore. I really have a hard time imagining coming to work, walking in, and not having her smiling self say good morning. Or come down the hall and give me a kiss because she is after all, my mother hen!

To celebrate her retirement, we are taking her to lunch. I love Mexican food, so we are very lucky! From there, I will say my goodbyes and then be on my way to spend the rest of the day doing my own thing. I haven't taken any time for myself in a while, so I am taking this afternoon to do some things that I have been putting off.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful weekend!!! I can't believe it's almost 2008!!!

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Just Beautiful!

This is the view of Mt. Rose from my parents house Christmas morning. Absolutely gorgeous!!!

They are so lucky to have this view right out their living room window. It is just breath taking.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Wonderful Christmas

This Christmas was by far the most wonderful yet, but also the most unusual. I got to spend Christmas Eve with my family, which I am always thankful to do. We had good food, yummy drinks, and played some games. Just having everyone together at the same time is a huge gift. Christmas morning was fun. This year it was just the two of us because the kids were with their mom, so we exchanged our gifts together in our new home. It was very sweet and really was such a great feeling to be with the man that I love in our house on Christmas morning. We then rushed up to my parents house to be with them. My sister was all sorts of sad that I didn't stay Christmas Eve with her, but happy that when she got up, I was there. We opened gifts and then had breakfast. It was so nice and relaxing.

Next we were off to his parents house. This was the part that was unusual for me. I have never not been with my family on Christmas. I know I was with them in the morning, but it was so weird leaving to go to another house without them. However, it was still a wonderful afternoon. We got the kids early which was so nice and we were both so very thankful for that. The afternoon was spent opening gifts, eating yummy food, playing games, and just enjoying being with each other. I was very happy when my parents showed up. They came to see the kids on Christmas and to give them their gifts.

The whole day was amazing...everything about it. I loved playing "Santa" and I loved more than anything just spending time with the people that I love. It really couldn't have been any better.

Monday, December 24, 2007

Letting Go

It is really crazy how people come in and out of your life. I am usually left wondering, I wonder what the purpose of that was. There are times when I realize, huh, they did this for me or I was able to do this for them. It is when I can put meaning on the 'relationship' that there was that I feel like there really was some sort of importance and the time wasn't wasted. I am not just talking about relationships with guys, I am talking about friendships as well. I have my few close friends, my best friends, and then I have many other friends, acquaintances. I care for all the people that I allow in my life and truly try to do right by all of them. I have had friendships end and instead of feeling sad, I always find the bright side in it.

A friendship of mine ended. I think it started coming to an end a couple weeks ago, but it literally died over the weekend. I can't say that I am sad because I would be lying. In fact, I know that it is truly for the best. Do I hate this person? No. We are just both very different and definitely see most everything opposite of each other. I am thankful for her for one thing where she is concerned - pushing me at the right moment back in May to send a text message that ended up changing my life for the better. Aside from that, there really wasn't much more to our 'relationship'.

Saturday night we spent Eli's birthday at Coconut Bowl. Everyone knows that he goes there for his birthday and my friends knew that is what we were planning (since August). The fact that his ex, who I was friends with was there, was a bit odd to me. I let it go because our night was going so well that we weren't going to let anyone get us down. We had the private bowling area reserved, but only for two hours, so after our friends moved over to be closer to the jungle gym since that is where the kids were anyway. Well the table they picked was close to where his ex was sitting. They picked the table, not us. They didn't know who the other people were nor did they care. They wanted to be close to where the kids come in and out so we could all keep an eye on the kids playing. His ex wasn't at the table when we got over to where everyone was at. I actually was at the table before Eli was. And it was then that his exes mom started shouting my name. I went over and said hi and it was then that she started making inappropriate comments. I smiled and shrugged it off. Well, when Eli came over to our table, she started shouting his name. Him, trying to be nice, went over to say hi to her. Not because he likes her because truthfully he can't stand her and has never had a kind thing to say about her (or anyone else in the family), but to be nice. He was in a great mood, it was his birthday, and he didn't want problems.

I am not sure what was said while he was over there, but he came back irritated. I guess she was making inappropriate comments to him as well and he doesn't put up with shit like that at all. And I don't blame him at all. We were minding our own business and enjoying the time with our friends while the kids played and that is when things escalated. We were informed by one of the people at our table that his exes mom was taking pictures of us. So Eli picked up the phone and did the same back and told her to grow up. My back was to the other table, so I have no idea what sent him over the edge, but he was done. He was done with all the nonsense bullshit that had ever arose from dating his ex. Her mom came over and was saying stuff to him, he was saying things back. Was he drunk? Nope, quite the opposite. He isn't stupid. We had the kids and he doesn't get drunk when we have them. He was pissed. He was pissed for the things his ex has done to me or said to me, for judging where his kids are concerned (no one messes with his kids), and the fact they wouldn't just let us be. Her mom came over and was trying to show him the camera to say she wasn't taking pictures of us, but he didn't want to see it and he kept telling her that and she kept insisting.

Due to the pushing, he finally let it all out. Everything that he had been wanting to say and had been holding back flowed out. Everything that he felt, thought, and never said, came out. The fact that I was even friends with his ex pissed him off to no extent. He absolutely despises her, loathes her, and literally has never said one kind word about her. I don't know exactly what happened between the two of them and truthfully, I could care less. It was many years ago and the fact that it seems to still be something that her and her family can't let go is quite sad. Yes, he said mean things to them. Do I blame him? Not so much. I was honestly shocked with how her mom kept pushing and the ugly, nasty things that came out of her mouth. It wasn't like we just sat down and then he flipped out. He was pushed to the limit and now it is all said and done.

I would never, ever forgive my mother for acting like that. If my mom ever got involved in my business like that and said the things that hers did, I would be mortified. And seriously, who on Earth goes up to someone and tries to make bets on how long a relationship is going to last? Yep, her mom. It wasn't until she made that comment to Eli about not putting a $100 on us lasting, that he told her that she was trailer trash, garbage, and to go back to the trailer park.

As all this was unfolding, I realized that it was far past the time that I should have let that friendship go. It was long over due. I realized that I have a great guy that is willing to stick up for his family - his kids and me and that he isn't going to let someone try to screw with us. After all was said and done, he just looked and me and told me how much he loved me and it was then I knew that I am a better person being with him. I am not meaner, bitchier, or weaker. In fact, I am stronger, I don't let the little things get to me, I don't let other people affect me. I am nice to those that are nice to me and are true friends. I am a bitch when it suits as are most other people. It is quite sad that someone that was a friend has used everything that was shared during our friendship to try to hurt me and our relationship.

I am thankful that Saturday night happened. I have been looking for an out in that 'relationship' for awhile and it just made it simple and easy and like I said before, it should have been done a long time ago. I don't need someone in my life that is constantly going to judge and ridicule me nor someone that sits and just waits to see if my relationship will unfold. Saturday night brought Eli and I closer than we were even earlier that day. I love him more and more each day and always will.

Christmas is Here!

I can't even begin to say how excited I am for Christmas! I am looking forward to all the family time. I am anxious sitting here at work knowing that when I get off and Eli picks me up, we are off to a house full of love and special family time. I am so very excited for my first Christmas with Eli and the kids. Tomorrow is going to be so much fun seeing their little faces light up. Both of our families are just so excited to spend time with them. It really is all about family and the kids at this time of year. We have everything done and are all set and ready. Now I am just filled with excitement and anxiety!!!

It is this time of year that I realize how lucky I am. I have the most wonderful boyfriend. Yes, there have been a couple down times, but we have risen above them and are only stronger, closer, and have a better understanding of each other. I am so in love was reminded of that all weekend and today.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas. Enjoy and cherish all the time with your family, friends, loved ones - this time of year is so special and a time to really take it all in!

Friday, December 21, 2007


I have been tagged by Lindz for a meme - thanks Lindz!

~ Start Copy ~

Rules :
1. Copy from “Start Copy” until “End of Copy”.
2. Before “End of Copy”, share your best memories of 2007 include your name and your URL blog.
3. Share this tag to your friends.

This year has been a year of changes!

2007 brought:

Moving back to my old job. What a great move it was. It really was a healthy move. I actually like coming to work, I enjoy what I am doing, I have a ton of freedom and my supervisors are awesome.

Eli and the kids. I couldn’t ask for anything better. This relationship is truly the best thing that has happened to me and one that I cherish. I have learned so many new things and the meaning and feeling of true love. I cherish having the kids be a part of my life again and love so much watching them grow, learn, experience. It truly is a wonderful thing. My life feels whole, complete and like everything is just how it should be.

My trip to Park City to help my best friend plan her wedding and just an all around great time with my two best friends. Without them, my life wouldn’t be the same. I love them so much.

Our new house!! There are still so many things that need to be done and that I want to do, but I still love it. It is ours and just perfect for the four of us. Plus it’s a great neighborhood. We really lucked out.

My first cruise!!! The time away and it being just the two of us was just awesome. It was a nice get away and a great time to bond and get even closer. Not to mention the great places that we visited that were just beautiful!

Teaching my sister to drive my truck which is a stick. That was by far one of the funniest things ever. I was laughing so hard I could hardly breathe and almost peed my pants. She is the cutest thing.

My discovery of pan roast. My papa always ate it, but I had never tried it until one time out with Eli. Boy had I been missing out!

Making new friends in the blogging world and getting to know new people from blogging.

Learning a new position for work and getting promoted!!!!!!!!!! New responsibility, new office, new title, more money! I like working and like it even more when I know that I am needed and thought of so well as an employee to be considered for such a move.

Alright, that is it for now because I have work I need to work on.

I tag Angie, Lainey-Paney, Patty, Megan

Thursday, December 20, 2007


I have never been a girl who gets all excited over flowers or expects them or anything. Could that be because I have never been with anyone worth while? More than likely. Nonetheless, I am still like that. I get asked all the time about this kind of thing and I always answer that flowers aren't really my thing. I am just not like that. I am not into presents all the time or being super pampered. Don't get me wrong, little things here are nice as long as they come from the heart. If I were to get flowers all the time, then there wouldn't be any joy and surprise when I do get them.

With that being said, Eli does simple little things for me all the time to let me know that he loves and cares about me. I have gotten roses a couple of times which were very much appreciated and all too cute.

Last night I got a text from him a little before 5pm saying that he would be leaving work at 5pm and that he loves me. I was absolutely freezing for some reason (could be that the heat was off all day and I was waiting for the house to warm up...), so I crawled in bed and snuggled and just waited for him to get him. He comes in and walks in to find me and first thing out of his mouth was, "What the fuck happened to your truck??" I looked at him like he was an alien.

Me: "Nothing happened to it. What are you talking about?"

Him: "Um, there is a six inch dent in the front of it by your wheel well."

Me: "No there isn't. I didn't see it."

Him: "You never notice anything and yes there is. What did you do? What happened?"

Me: "Are you serious???"

Him: "Yes, I just ran my finger along it."

Me: "I didn't do anything." -at this point I am about to cry, I hate when stuff like that happens-

He comes over and hugs and kisses on me and then I decide that it is time to go and check out this dent that I didn't notice that he is all upset over. I walk to the garage door, breath a heavy sigh, open the door....AND...on the hood of my truck are beautiful flowers. It was such a nice, wonderful surprise. I turned around and hugged him and then had to hit him for scaring me that there was a dent in my truck. They are seriously so pretty. Have a look!
The picture is a little blurry, but you can see how beautiful they are! I think they are so pretty. I couldn't stop smiling. He is so good about doing the little things at just the right time and letting me know that he loves me. I definitely am spoiled that is for sure.

We were supposed to go to another basketball game last night, but it ended up that neither one of us were in the mood to be around other people. Instead, we wanted to be alone - after all, the flowers really seemed to start to heat things up! So we shared a nice evening alone. ;)

Wednesday, December 19, 2007


My sister called me after her appointment with the neurologist. At first I thought that she was crying, but then realized that she was just hurting due to her head. I was so anxious to hear what she found out and what the neurologist had to say. The neurologist doesn't "think" that there is anything seriously wrong with her. He thinks that she is just suffering from hereditary migraines. Crazy to me that they just all of a sudden started happening. I know that people get them, I just didn't realize that they happened so frequently.

So she was given some sort of nose spray that she is to take if she wakes up at night and feels a headache coming on. Then she was given a pill to take for when she feels one coming on during the day. And the was given yet another pill to take every day.

I guess I am happy that he thinks it is just migraines. It is just so very sad to me still that the sweet thing has to deal with such crap at a young age. I am very, very thankful that it isn't something life threatening or anything like that. I am just hoping the pills and nose spray really help her out so that the headaches aren't so often or near as bad. At least now, we can all rest at ease finally.


The sweet girl is having more issues with her headaches. The vitamins they put her on seemed to help a little bit, but didn't last long. On Monday she had to go home early from school because she was in so much pain. She slept for 6 hours. Her head was still hurting her so bad that she even stayed home from school yesterday. Mom called her doctor yesterday morning and she had to go in for and EKG to see how her heart is because they are going to put her on stronger meds. Today, she goes in to see a neurologist. I feel so bad for her. I hate that she is in so much pain. I was talking to her on the phone last night and you could just hear in her voice how much she was hurting.

I talked to my mom this morning to see how she was doing and my sister will not be going to school again today. I guess she was up over half the night in so much pain that she couldn't get comfortable enough to even fall asleep. So heartbreaking. Yesterday she finally told us that she is scared. She is scared because she doesn't know what is wrong with her and scared that it could be something really bad. She also said that the only time she doesn't feel it is when she sleeps...but that wasn't so much the case last night, so it makes me think that it is getting worse.

I am scared for her and worried. I just want us to get some answers and figure it out so that something can be done so she can start feeling well again.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Much Needed Humor

Could you imagine looking out your front window and seeing this???


Monday, December 17, 2007

Thought for the day

Handle every stressful situation like a dog.

If you can't eat it or hump it, piss on it and walk away.


This Made Me Smile

Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl, "Will you marry me?"

The girl said, "No."

And she lived happily ever after and went shopping, drank vodka tonics with friends, always had a clean house, never had to cook, had a closet full of shoes and handbags, stayed skinny and was never farted on.

The End

Weekend stuff & Sister stuff

Well, we didn't get the Christmas shopping done that I thought we might. But that is ok. We still have part of this week and an evening this weekend. Nothing like waiting til the last minute. This is the worst I have put it off yet. But that is what happens when you have a new house and oh so many bills. Well worth it and it will all get done, I have faith. I was starting to stress though last night. I have to get the presents for the kids wrapped and we only have tonight, Sunday night and Christmas Eve that I can do it. And Christmas Eve we are busy, so I am really looking at just two nights. I seriously can't even begin to express how excited I am for Christmas this year. It is going to be the best yet!

The weekend was a good one. On Friday night, I sent the boyfriend and his best friend to a concert and I had "girl" time with my good friend, Dawn. Tara stopped by for a little bit too, but seeing Dawn and talking and catching up with her was just awesome. She is just a genuine friend and one that I am so thankful and glad to have. We don't have to talk every week and see each other all the time and yet, we are still able to pick up right where we left off. And really, she cracks my ass up. She really is one of those people that comes off as so sweet and innocent, but really...she isn't! She is probably more sassy than I am and can have just as much attitude. I love it!

The rest of the weekend, Eli and I just spend together. Saturday was a relaxing day. We went to lunch together and then went up to my parents house. My sister had her Christmas Ball dance that night and wanted me to come help her. I played it off that I wouldn't be able to make it (guess she even pouted to mom about it), so when I showed up, she freaked out. It was so cute. Her, her best friend, and my cousin all got ready together. It was so fun listening to them and watching them. I couldn't help but think back to all the dances that I have gotten ready for. She looked so beautiful. And Eli was such a trooper listening to all the girl chatter, hair and make-up doing.

My sister and her best friend. Her friend is the sweetest thing ever and the two of them have so much fun together!
My sister, her friend, and my cousin. They all look so pretty!!!

Here are the cousins...stupid camera! So many of the pictures I took turned out blurry. Pisses me right off! Oh well, you can still see how gorgeous they are!

After the getting ready and getting the girls off to their dance, Eli and I went to dinner and then got a movie and just snuggled on the couch. Snuggling is the best time!

Yesterday we slept in, went to lunch with his parents and then got a couple drinks before going to watch another basketball game. Again, we had so much fun and are planning on going again. It is nice that we are able to enjoy stuff like that together. Then it was home, I cooked some dinner and then off to bed to be refreshed for this week.

Overall, it was a nice weekend. The next two weekends are going to be crazy busy for us. I will update you as they come!

Friday, December 14, 2007

Christmas Spirit

I am starting to really get in the Christmas spirit. It actually sort of started last weekend when we got our tree, but really kicked in last night. We took the kiddos to Grandma and Papa's and they got to decorate their tree. She also got a bunch of clear ornaments and some fun pens and everyone got to decorate their own. Such a simple idea, but so damn cute. And something that you will have for years to come. Being as I am not the craftiest of people, I only made one, but it turned out very cute and it is a "family" one and dated.

Then we just had our Christmas party at work. It is so nice having everyone get all together for good food and just a good time. Everyone was just so happy and in a good mood and festive. I never really realize how many people work in our department until get togethers like this. It is amazing how many people work every day that you never see.

And this weekend, I think we are going to be doing some Christmas shopping. We just have to buy some little things for each of our family and then we are done. Now I just need to get my butt in gear and get everything wrapped. I can't wait for the family to be all together again and sharing a great time. This has been the best year for holiday's yet with the three special people that I have in my life and their great family that I get to embrace as mine. I am one lucky girl!

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Finally Busy

It is so nice. I love it. I am still bouncing between both positions, but I have found it to be good in the sense that I am always having something to do. There isn't so much down time at work. With the new position I am learning so many new things and the lady training me has completely backed off and given me everything. Most everything I know what to do, but there are certain times that there are more things to end of the year, balancing things, and so on. So I am doing the new stuff now. It is very refreshing and energizing to be learning new things and be trusted to do important stuff on my own in a job that is brand new.

But, with the responsibility, comes stress. The other job was so carefree. I had been doing it for so long that it was nothing to do it. I could do it in my sleep! Now I am just trying to find a balance. And it's not a bad stress, but a good stress. A stress of actually having stuff to do and having to prioritize things. I am just so happy and so thankful that all this is working out and that I am picking up and learning everything so fast. And I am very thankful for all the help and support I have gotten from my co-workers.

Alright, back to work now! Just wanted to update on how well things were going!


I used to go to the UNR basketball games with my ex a lot. There was one season a couple years ago and I think we only missed one or two home games. It was crazy. Last year I only went to a few. These games are seriously so much fun to go to. I love watching them play and I love just being out and doing something.

I was able to score Eli and I some free tickets from one of my hook-ups on campus for last nights game. We made a whole night of it. We both were home early, went to dinner, and then went to the game. It was such a nice, simple evening.

There was a guy sitting behind us that was seriously cracking my ass up the whole time. This guy would seriously just start screaming at the ref's and yet, was pretty far away that I am sure they couldn't hear him. He talked shit the whole time and was just hysterical to listen to. I couldn't help but laugh. Not only was the game good, but I had some extra entertainment as well!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007


I really do find great pleasure in knowing that there are people that have nothing better to do with their lives than try to bring me down. I find even more pleasure in knowing that whoever (could be more than one person) it is takes the time to visit my blog, read my blog, and then create names and passwords just so they can leave a snide comment on my blog. I wonder if they really have nothing better to do with themselves.

I got this comment this morning when I talked about how cold it is in my office: "do you do anything other than complain?"

Ha! Obviously you don't read my blog in it's entirety.

The first negative comment (the one that got erased!) was posted on my post about what I was thankful for right around Thanksgiving. Who in their right mind would be mean to someone when the post is so uplifting and nice. Truthfully, it shows that the person doing it isn't a good person at all and has nothing but negative energy filling their heart. It is so funny to me because it doesn't ruin my day, it doesn't bring me down, it doesn't do anything but amuse me how immature some people are. The people that judge me and take the time out of their day to do stupid shit only shows me that they are unhappy with their own life and can't stay out of mine.

I realize that having this blog leaves me open to be judged and scrutinized. And that is ok by me. You don't have to like me, you don't have to like what I write, and you don't have to visit this blog. Blogging is something that I enjoy. It is a way of releasing things that are on my mind and finding support and new friends. I don't just write about happy times. I talk about the trying times and the not so good, as well as the happy and fun times. Most of the good is on my private blog, but I still share A LOT of good on this one as well. It truly has been a great experience that will not be ruined by immature people that have nothing better to do with their time than be assholes to other people. This is a time of year when people are supposed to be nice, caring, merry. So for those of you that aren't feeling that, I am sorry for you. I hope that in time you are able to find that eventually. It's time to grow up, let go, and move on.

Swoon Worthy

My boyfriend is awesome. I love him more and more every day. He is isn't the best about sharing exactly how he is feeling, so when he does, it makes me melt.

I got this text message the other day:

"I wish I had the words to express my love for you Stephanie. You mean the absolute world to me and always will til the end of time."

Definitely heart melting and swoon worthy.


Today I am wearing my new is so freaking cute!!!!!!!!!!!!! Eli's parents did a whole big order for the shop and I was lucky enough to get a really super cute purple form fitting jacket. I LOVE LOVE LOVE it. And then I also got this way cute black zip up. I swear, I am so spoiled sometimes and so lucky at the same time. I just love them!


I have an office job. With that you would think that I wouldn't have to worry about being cold or uncomfortable. Not so much the case at all. Instead, I am constantly bundled up. Half the time, you will find me wearing my jacket (I am still wearing mine now). There is no wearing short sleeves and even with a long sleeve, it is still cold. We literally have to have personal little heaters to try to warm the office up. Ugh, so annoying.

Oh, and I am feeling much better. It took til over the weekend for my voice finally to be normal again. I still have a stuffy nose at times and a cough, but other than that, I am great. Thanks Lindz for asking!!! :)

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Update on Sister

The MRI results came back and they were normal. So no tumor...thank God! What a huge relief that is for her and everyone else. Now, mom is just waiting to talk to the doctor on what to do next. I guess my sister started taking some vitamins that are supposed to help with the headaches, but she had one yesterday afternoon. I am sure that the vitamins need to get in her system though before you feel the effects of them. I am just so thankful that a tumor is ruled out.

Thank you all for all of your support, kind words, prayers, thoughts...everything. You guys are so wonderful. It truly means a lot to me.

Monday, December 10, 2007


I have such a bad headache. I am so sick of this shit. It looks like I am going to have to get an epidural. I need to schedule it and hopefully it will happen fairly soon because I need some sort of relief. I am so tired of the pain. I just hate this. It affects so much - especially my work. It is hard to sit on the computer all day when your neck is killing me.

I know I have whined over this before, but it is something that sucks to deal with and live with especially when I was pain free before the accident ever happened. What's even better, is I wasn't doing anything wrong the day of the accident. I was simply on my way to the gym at 4pm. What is more annoying is all the people involved that are claiming that they aren't at fault. The people that dropped the furniture that work for a big company here in town are saying, "Well, if people were paying attention, they would have slowed down or changed lanes and no accident would have happened even though there was something in the road." And then everyone else is saying that the accident happened because of that piece of furniture. I am just so lucky I was paying attention and came to a stop - even though I was still forced into my friend in front of me.

Ok, enough whining. I just want to feel better.

Friday, December 7, 2007

Simply Irritated

That is the genuine feeling that I am feeling right now. And really, that is all I have to say right now about it because I couldn't even put my feelings into words if I tried.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Extremely Worried

My beautiful sister:

There is something wrong with my sister, but they don't know what it is yet. For some time now she has been getting super bad headaches...not migraines though. But these headaches totally knock her on her ass. It is so sad. The poor girl is 16 and they happen at least once a week. When the problem first started, we thought maybe that her prescription had changed and so she got her eyes checked. Well, it hadn't changed, so that couldn't be the problem. Just last week, mom took her to the doctor and the doctor told my sister to take some kind of pill or something, but to get an MRI just in case.

Well, the sweet angel had to stay home from school, again, today. Her head hurt so bad that she was crying and didn't want my mom to go to work. You know she is sick when that happens! Today was her MRI and so now, it is just a waiting game. I am scared to death. I am so worried. She is so young and I just pray and hope that there isn't something seriously wrong with her.

It seriously scares the living shit out of me right now and my poor sister is trying to be so strong and act like it's not bothering her. But I know better. She always tries to act like she doesn't care or she isn't hurting even though inside she is torn up. I just wish that it wasn't her. That it was me instead. She shouldn't have to deal with the pain or the anxiety.

I just hope that it isn't something serious and that we don't really have to wait until Monday like the tech said to my mom and sister today. I hate waiting. But I am so ready for my sister not to have the painful headaches that she does and just to be a happy teenager.
I love you little Boo!!!!

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

My Day is Made

Eli informed me last night that he would be working up at one of the new buildings on campus. This is exciting just because we would be working in the same vicinity, but realistically, that doesn't mean that either of us would actually have the time to see the other. Me, I am training on a new job and him, well...his job is so random that he could or couldn't get breaks and what not.

First thing this morning I pulled into the parking garage and the first thing that I saw was his crane out the opening. I instantly smiled. I know, I am sappy. I mean, we hadn't even been apart a couple hours. But still it made my heart thud. Then as I was walking out of the parking garage I sent him a text message saying, "I see you...!" By the time I walked out, he was peeking out the crane and instantly waved when he saw me. So cute. (I am sure some of you are barfing...oh well, I never get sappy on here) A few seconds later I got a text saying, "I love you." So freaking cute.

The day went on and we were texting. I was busy during his break. Then I was busy doing my new job and missed his lunch. I know, I suck and am an asshole. Oh well. I didn't think that I would see him because of that, but then, he surprised me and called when he left the job and stopped by to see me before he went back to the shop. I thought that was sweet considering we will be home together in just a little bit. The guy makes me smile that is for sure.

So, it is because of my sweet boyfriend that my day was made.

Can't Wait!!!

So a bunch of things that we ordered for the kids for Christmas came to the house. I am so very excited. Going through everything, I felt like it was Christmas and got so excited for them. I seriously can't wait to see how they are and how they react. It's going to be so great and so wonderful!!!! It's so fun being on this side of it and has been a great experience so far. I am truly enjoying it.

I still have so much that I need to do though. I haven't bought for any of my friends, still have my parents and sister to buy for and then some of the people on Eli's side. I swear I love this time of year so much, but it is so stressful at the same time. I wish that I would have been more prepared this year, but with so many things going on and a new house, you do what you can. And the house makes the stress more than worth it. I am just looking forward to all the family time. That by far out weighs everything.

Congrats Jen!!!! =)

I have heard that Jen had little Coleton!!! I am so very excited. I can't wait to hear more about it.

I heart all of you Jen!!!! Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, December 3, 2007

Blogging Machine

I just realized that last month between this blog and the Hidden one, I posted 50 posts. That is insane. I couldn't believe it. I don't know what I had to say, but it much have been something. I have noticed that the more I am posting, the easier it is for me to write and to want to right. There are still times that I stress over posting certain things because I worry what people will think. And then I am getting to the point and just saying, "Fuck it," and posting anyway.

Sound like shit

It is so sad the way that I sound. I squeak, I cut out, I sound nothing close to normal at all. It all started Friday night. I was having a couple beers with a friend and the longer that I sat there, the more my voice would start to change and I would squeak. By the time we left, I sounded terrible and it just hasn't gotten any better. It's not that I feel bad because I really don't feel to bad. It's more that I sound absolutely yucky and now I am starting to cough. I am very curious how long this is going to last. It's already been 3 days! Eli says its hot. I don't understand how the hell that could be though!