Because I can, I am going to toot my own horn. I don't like to do it, but I am pretty proud of myself.
This morning marked the first of me no longer being able to just have to worry about myself in the morning to get ready and out the door. Instead, I had to get two little ones up, dressed, fed, teeth brushed, jackets, lunches, back packs, etc out the door ON TOP of myself. Now, having them on the weekends and having had plans before, I was somewhat prepared. However, wanting to be to work on time and prove (to myself) that I could do it, I was very anxious. I wanted to get up earlier than I did, but just couldn't. See, I couldn't fall asleep last night. All I could think about was what I was going to do when I got up, what time I was going to get the kids up, which kid I should start with, and then every other move from there on out. I laid in bed for three hours before finally falling asleep. I was then woken up at 3am when Eli went to the bathroom and my mind starting running all over again. By the time my alarm went off I was actually sleeping good and didn't for a second want to get out of bed. But, I had something to prove.
Out of bed and into the shower. Laying there for hours last night, I knew exactly what I was putting on and then did the make-up and hair. Then it was off to Swae's room. I made sure the heat was on because she hates getting out of bed when it is cold. She woke up without complaining and jumped in my arms. I helped her get dressed and then told her to come help me get Sethie up. Seth wasn't having it at first...then we made a game of it and he was all over it. Smiles and laughing filled the rest of my morning. Once Seth was dressed, I did Swae's hair and then the three of us went downstairs to have breakfast. It was so nice sitting at the table talking with them this morning and just seeing their bright shining faces. I honestly can't explain what it was like having them. And all I have heard from Eli today is how happy he is as well. After our cereal we were upstairs brushing teeth, then putting shoes on and out the door.
Yes, I had me and two kids up and out of the door in one hour. I rock, I know. The drive was pleasant and I enjoyed so much just chatting away with them. It made me not want to go to work. And after the day we had yesterday, I could totally see myself being a stay at home mom. Drop off went rather well. Swae wanted to come to work with me and Seth was a clingy little monkey that had to be pried away from me. I am not going to lie, my heart freaking melted when I got in my car to leave and saw two sweet angels sitting in the window waving at me and blowing me kisses. Talk about starting my morning off fabulous.
And I was on time for work. A few minutes early even. I was stoked. I would have liked to have had a little bit of extra time but I am sure I will have that when I actually get a decent nights sleep. I have no doubt that tomorrow morning will go well and I am looking forward to it. I am loving this new schedule...absolutely loving it.