Something Good, Something Hard

Ah, what a day today and it isn't even over yet. Work went well, got my hair cut, and now am awaiting my girls night. I love girls night Thursday's, but at the same time they can be hard. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE my girlfriends and we have so much fun together, but by being with them on Thursday night, that means I am not with the kiddos. There lies the hard part. Since we are unfortunate to have the kids more than what we do, I cherish the time that we have them and it is extremely hard for me to not be with them when Eli does have them. It breaks my heart when I am told how they are constantly asking for me and wondering where I am and if I will be coming home.

Me and the girls doing girls night is something that just started happening a few months ago and it is something that is so nice because then we are guaranteed to see each other every week. And with Kara's upcoming move, I feel very fortunate to have this time to spend with her. I never imagined that my best friend would be moving 8 hours away. Us getting together weekly is something that I look forward to and something that I know I am going to miss when Kara isn't here and it is just Tara and I.

I have contemplated many times asking the girls if we could move 'girls night' to a Monday or a Wednesday, that way we could still get together weekly, but I wouldn't be missing out on any time that we have with the kids. And then I thought better of it. I don't want to mess up a system that we have that is working for three. The weeks that we have the kids is definitely a lot easier for me than when we don't because then I am not going a week in between seeing them. I am hoping that maybe after Kara does move away that Tara and I carry on the tradition, but can move it to a different day. I think that she will be quite receptive considering she is my best friend as well and knows the love I have for those kids.

I truly think that everything will work out in the end just as it is supposed to. For tonight, I will miss the little ones but know they will enjoy every second that they have with their daddy. I will have a yummy dinner and enjoy some excellent company. I will wait for 5pm tomorrow when I the four of us get to be all together. I will have to make something yummy for dinner...something that I know the kids love. Tomorrow will be a great day!!