My Aunt - Update

It is hard to believe that the woman in this picture has cancer. Ugh, it breaks my heart. I went last night to watch my cousin play in her volleyball tournament and I couldn't help but shower my aunt with love an affection. I could tell that she wasn't herself and that it was on her mind. And I know that she is scared and she was trying to hide it and be strong.

She tried getting in to see the surgeon last week, but wasn't able to. So she had to wait until this morning. Those days were very long for her and made her very anxious and nervous as well. I loved hanging out with her last night and talking to her.

This morning was a bit stressful. Mom talked to her before her appointment this morning and said that she was super nervous. My uncle was there for her, so she wasn't alone and she knew she had support. The appointment was at 9. Around 10:30 I still hadn't heard anything, so I called my mom and she said that it might be awhile. The waiting game sucked.

My phone rang a little before noon and it was my mom. She had just got off the phone with my aunt who was crying. Heart = broken. I hate that. She is scheduled for surgery July 16 at noon. The doctor seems to be pretty optimistic, so that is a positive. He will be taking a good part of her bronchial tube and hopefully not as much lung as he initially thought, but won't know until he is in there. She will be in the hospital for 4-5 days. :(

She is upset because she is scared. And to add to it, we have our big family vacation starting the 18th. She feels like she is screwing up the plans and letting people down because her and my uncle won't go and my cousins probably won't either. And at that point, I don't know if the rest of us will go either. I mean, she will be done with her surgery, but it won't be the same without her there and everyone is just going to be thinking about her and worrying about her. So we will see. She is just so bummed and feels like she is a burden...which is so not the truth at all.

I hate that she is going through this, but know that she is strong enough to take it on. I know that she can beat this. She has so much love and support. She is such a wonderful, loving person. I will continue to pray for her and send lots of love. I know she needs it right now.