Progress

So I posted about my goals about working out and just wanted to give an update on how I have been doing. I worked out both Monday and Wednesday of last week. Then I did a class on Saturday morning at 8am. I have never been able to pull my ass out of bed for a workout before. But I got up and was in a good mood and had energy and then after my workout, I felt so good, I got so much stuff done. Then on Sunday, I participated in a 10K run in Minden. It was awesome. I don't know why I did the 10K rather than the 5K since I haven't been running, but I did better than I thought. I felt so amazing after. I worked out on Monday and then took the last two days off because I went camping on Tuesday night and was at the lake all day yesterday. I am however going to go tonight and will be going on Saturday for sure. I think I am doing quite well, but know I could still do better. I just love how I feel after I work out. It is the greatest feeling and I feel so much more healthy.

Happy Birthday Papa

Today is my Papa's birthday. I am still just in shock that it has been a year that he has been gone and the pain that I still fill in my heart.

I hope you know that you are always on my mind and in my heart. You are thought about and missed daily. I love you so much!

I have NEVER...

...been in a fight or been hit before. (we will come back to this point, but keep it in mind)

Getting together with Eli, I expected a ton of drama and just shit to come flying our way. Like I said before, I was worried about Shannon, but I was also worried about his ex wife. Obviously things with Shannon and I are fine and all is well there. Things with Kasey...well nothing has happened. I figured it was all too good to be true (you know, her keeping her mouth shut, not starting shit, being childish), but just didn't know what was going to happen and when. I figured it would just keep being low blows where his kids were concerned. Oh but I was wrong. I can't believe I forgot how absolutely crazy their entire family is.

Moving on. Last night Eli had the kids for a few hours. When we were getting ready to leave the house to go take them to Kasey's, he said we should go drop by Farmer's Market for a few. I was super tired, but figured what the hell. So we head there knowing that none of my friends were there and that just a couple of his were going to meet us. We stop in and get a drink and are standing outside of Cantina when I spot Kelly who is walking right towards us. Instantly I thought to myself, "Oh great..." I can't stand her, I really can't. So I just moved closer to Eli and looked away from her. Wrong thing to do. Bitch walks by me and next thing I hear is, "Fucking bitch!" My drink gets smacked out of my hand which goes all in my hair, face, down the front of me because it was still half full! Then she swings. She made contact with my right above my left eye, but I didn't really feel it. It all happened so fast that I didn't even get the chance to say anything to her. I couldn't see due to all the damn strawberry margarita in my eye and up my nose and every where else for that matter. The cops came over and we pointed them in her direction but I don't think that they got her. At that point, I just felt like a sticky mess and wanted nothing more than to go home and shower.

I am so pissed. First of all, who the fuck does she think she is and why the hell was she so chicken shit to wait until she was almost BEHIND be before she made any move on me?!?!! I am so mad. I wish that there was something that I could do and will look into my options today. I just hate knowing that she goes around and jacks people all the damn time and nothing is ever done about it. She should seriously have a ton of people that have filed stuff against her. Lucky for me though, she didn't leave a mark. It just goes to show that Kasey really doesn't like the situation, but is just holding her mouth shut where Eli and I are concerned. She is flapping her mouth to everyone else. The thing that they all need to realize is that doing shit like that isn't going to make me want to leave Eli and run the other way. It makes me want to make it work that much more (things have been going perfect anyway). Whatever she was trying to accomplish really didn't work. She didn't hurt me, she didn't leave a mark, she didn't effect our relationship...

Eli handled the situation great. I have never seen anyone so pissed before in all my life, but he was great. Without him, I probably would have broken down in tears, not because I was hurt, but because I was so mad at the situation in general. He was all about pampering me and making sure I was ok.

Now I can't say that I have never been hit before, but I can still say I have never been in a fight!

My Goal

My goal is to get back to the gym. Now I have enough time to do it since I am not working the other job AND still have a life. The gym doesn't take up much time and even if I go at night after work, I can still have time to do other things. That and my boss is on this big kick about losing weight...she is so cute seriously. So we went to the gym on Monday for the first time and are planning on going again tonight. Tonight we are going to do one of those classes that includes weights. I am so excited. Hers and my plan is to work out at least three times a week. We figure if we are going together, we are going to be motivation to each other. Like she said, she doesn't want me to be talking shit about her around the office for flaking out. I think that is a great way to look at it.

So there is my goal. If any of you catch wind that I am slacking from it, feel free to rip my ass (I know you will Shannon). She is the best at telling me I am being lazy and really pushing me to get off my ass and just do something.

Oh and I just got a new mountain bike yesterday! I was so excited. So no, I get to go bike riding!! =)

Stupid Doctor

Seriously, I hate going to the doctor, especially when I know that I am not going to get an answer about what the hell is going on with me. Take today for instance. I went to the doctor and walked away knowing nothing really more than what I did when I got there. For the last two weeks, I have been showing signs of a bladder infection. The weird thing is, the symptoms come and go. One day I could be so uncomfortable and in pain and then the next totally normal. Or I could be in pain for a could hours and then feel fine the next. Yes, this has been going on for two weeks and finally today was just too much for me.

So, I took my little self to the doctor. When asked what's wrong, I explained that I thought I could have a bladder infection...but it isn't your typical bladder infection. I couldn't think of any other way to explain it. I did the whole pee in a cup and wait for them to check it. They did their little text and told me, "It looks like the beginning stages of a bladder infection." I just started laughing. I said, "Wow, that is a long beginning stage since the problem has been going on for two weeks now." The doctor just had a dumbfounded look on her face and was like, "Well, I guess we will go ahead and treat it as though it is a bladder infection. If it doesn't get better, then come back and we will try to figure out what else it could be." Right...ok. So, she fills out my prescription and sends me on my way knowing nothing more than I did when I walked in the place.

What I walked away with:
$51.00 bill for the doctor to tell me exactly what I told her and to pee in a cup.
$5.00 for my Rx

Lovely

Still Here

Well, I have been out of the blogging loop for a little bit. I have just been really busy at work and then when I do have a free second, I was trying to do some reading for school. Ah, school...not sure how happy I am to be back in class, but it is actually going well for now. I am finding it hard to get all wrapped up in the readings and finish the readings, which are necessary to do the discussions and journals, but am pulling it off. Hopefully this week, I can catch up on all I didn't finish the last two weeks and get this weeks done. What a novel idea that is.

My last day couple days that the restaurant went well. I was so super nervous going into work on Wednesday after the phone conversation and being hung up on, but all was smooth. Everyone was nice and I made decent money. Oh and not only that, but I served my music teacher that I had in elementary school. How crazy is that!? She even remembered my name and everything. It was fun. Thursday being my last day, I didn't even want to go. I had a shit ton of reading I needed to do for assignments do on Friday and my friends were all going to Farmer's Market. Lucky for me, the place was slow due to the rodeo and Farmer's Market and I was off the clock at 7:00pm. I only had one table (thanks to the hostess purposefully not seating me like I asked her!) and I gave half the tip away just so I could leave. I am going to miss certain aspects of the job - like easy money, fun people to work with, free drinks - but I am already loving that I am able to plan things during the week and the weekend and not worry that I might be scheduled to work.

Oh and with not having to work so much I have been able to go grocery shopping, do laundry, hang out with my sister and family...all the stuff I had been missing out on since I started that job. Sunday was a tough day for me. I miss my Papa so much. I can't believe it has been a year since he left. I remember the whole thing like it was yesterday and it still hurts just the same knowing he isn't around. Friday is his birthday too...so another emotional day. At least I know that he is peaceful and not in pain anymore. --I love you Papa--

Other than that, just been working. My computer at work sucks and is driving me absolutely nuts (THANK YOU SHANNON FOR LETTING ME VENT). I am surprised the damn thing is still in one piece to be honest. I almost have them convinced to let me get a new one. Hhhhmmm, what else? That is all that I can think of for right now. I will try to be better about posting though.

Beyond Frustrated

And that is no lie. I am shocked even. As I wrote, I gave my part time job my notice and the reasoning behind it. They did try to work with me by changing the schedule so I have Friday off this week and realized they needed to have someone else work Saturday. Well, they had me scheduled for 4pm tomorrow, but I don't get out of my full time job until 4:30pm. I tried telling them yesterday that I couldn't be there at that time, but they were too busy to talk to me and had to get off the phone. So I figured I needed to call today to let them know and also try to talk to them about Sunday. I went into the conversation wanting to explain why Sunday is going to be hard for me and that I would be emotional, BUT if they still needed me, I would be there. This is how my conversation went with one of the bosses:

Me: "I just wanted to let you know that you guys have me scheduled to be in tomorrow at 4, but I don't get off work til 4:30."

Boss (with a shit ton of attitude): "Then get here at 5." --at this point he gets ready to hang up--

Me: "I also needed to talk to you about Sunday. I don't know if I am going to be able to make it..."

-before I could go any further-

Boss: "You are really going to do this to me on Father's Day weekend."

Me: "It's not that I am trying to..."

-before I could finish-

Boss: "Don't come in and don't bother showing up Wednesday." CLICK

I was seriously dumbfounded. My boss literally hung up on me. He didn't listen to a word I had to say. I sat there just stewing. My blood pressure was seriously through the roof. I was sitting here in my little skirt all freezing and had to strip off my little sweat jacket my blood was pumping so hard! I was thinking, well at least I don't have to worry about working anymore, but then also feeling very bad. That was a job that I used to love and could still love if I didn't feel like I was being taken advantage of. I am sure they are probably wondering what is going on with me. Why all of a sudden I am not picking up all the extra shifts and wanting to spend all my time up there. So after thinking on it for a few, I picked up the phone and called back.

I am not going to go into the whole phone conversation, but I made it clear that I didn't appreciate being hung up on, that I wasn't try to screw them over by not going in on Sunday, that had I been given a chance I would have explained why Sunday was going to be hard on me. I said that I wasn't trying to get out of work, but know that it is going to be extremely hard on me emotionally. I was told that they have a business to run and it can't be stopped just because something happened in my life a year ago. I was so upset. I told him to look at it from my perspective and see that I have worked every single holiday since I have started there WITHOUT complaining and have pulled doubles. I reminded him that I wasn't allowed to take Mother's Day off even though I requested it and made it fully aware that I would be missing out on my sisters 16th birthday, my cousins 18th birthday, AND Mother's Day. After all my explanation I said that I would work on Wednesday and Thursday and even Sunday if I was needed. It ended with me working the next two nights, and having Thursday be my last day.

I got off the phone feeling completely defeated. No matter what I said or what I did, it didn't seem to make anything better. Like I said to him, I don't want to leave there on bad terms or with tension. I don't want it to be left to where I don't feel comfortable going up there for dinner or drinks or whatever. And I don't want my last two nights to be completely uncomfortable...and I really have a feeling that is how it is going to be. Oh well. I am going to go in these next two nights with my head held high. I will work and do a good job and all the while have a smile on my face. I just hate that it came to what it did. I am also completely shocked that my boss hung up on me and treated me the way that he did. I know it is out of frustration, but still.

I just feel bad now.