Secrets?

**This post will probably make no sense at all.**

I have never been one to keep everything in my life secret. Usually I like to share things that I would keep secret with Kara and some times Tara. But lately...I have actually been keeping a secret. It is such a new feeling to me. It is weird not sharing what is going on, but I am enjoying going through this one thing on my own. Figuring it out, figuring my feelings out, not having other people's opinions influence me whatsoever. It is nice. I know Kara doesn't judge me or anything and I know that she supports me no matter what I do, but I just feel that this is something I want to do. And my other friends seem to be so set in their ways and so opinionated that I can't even imagine sharing with them. That doesn't mean they are bad friends or anything, its just the truth.

I don't know why I decided to keep this one thing to myself. I am usually such an open book and don't mind sharing anything (for the most part) about myself. And usually I talk to people about things that are going on, people that I am talking to, or anything else because I love their input and I love getting advice. More than anything, I like just sharing what is going on in my life. I don't like keeping secrets. That is one thing that I love about my friendships, especially with Kara...we tell each other everything. We know we can call each other and talk about absolutely anything and the other will just listen and be there. And when she gives me advice, I know she doesn't speak about how she would handle it, but thinks about me and the person that I am and gives advice on that basis.

So I don't know how long this whole keeping things to myself thing is going to last, but for the time being, it is working for me.