Beyond Frustrated

And that is no lie. I am shocked even. As I wrote, I gave my part time job my notice and the reasoning behind it. They did try to work with me by changing the schedule so I have Friday off this week and realized they needed to have someone else work Saturday. Well, they had me scheduled for 4pm tomorrow, but I don't get out of my full time job until 4:30pm. I tried telling them yesterday that I couldn't be there at that time, but they were too busy to talk to me and had to get off the phone. So I figured I needed to call today to let them know and also try to talk to them about Sunday. I went into the conversation wanting to explain why Sunday is going to be hard for me and that I would be emotional, BUT if they still needed me, I would be there. This is how my conversation went with one of the bosses:

Me: "I just wanted to let you know that you guys have me scheduled to be in tomorrow at 4, but I don't get off work til 4:30."

Boss (with a shit ton of attitude): "Then get here at 5." --at this point he gets ready to hang up--

Me: "I also needed to talk to you about Sunday. I don't know if I am going to be able to make it..."

-before I could go any further-

Boss: "You are really going to do this to me on Father's Day weekend."

Me: "It's not that I am trying to..."

-before I could finish-

Boss: "Don't come in and don't bother showing up Wednesday." CLICK

I was seriously dumbfounded. My boss literally hung up on me. He didn't listen to a word I had to say. I sat there just stewing. My blood pressure was seriously through the roof. I was sitting here in my little skirt all freezing and had to strip off my little sweat jacket my blood was pumping so hard! I was thinking, well at least I don't have to worry about working anymore, but then also feeling very bad. That was a job that I used to love and could still love if I didn't feel like I was being taken advantage of. I am sure they are probably wondering what is going on with me. Why all of a sudden I am not picking up all the extra shifts and wanting to spend all my time up there. So after thinking on it for a few, I picked up the phone and called back.

I am not going to go into the whole phone conversation, but I made it clear that I didn't appreciate being hung up on, that I wasn't try to screw them over by not going in on Sunday, that had I been given a chance I would have explained why Sunday was going to be hard on me. I said that I wasn't trying to get out of work, but know that it is going to be extremely hard on me emotionally. I was told that they have a business to run and it can't be stopped just because something happened in my life a year ago. I was so upset. I told him to look at it from my perspective and see that I have worked every single holiday since I have started there WITHOUT complaining and have pulled doubles. I reminded him that I wasn't allowed to take Mother's Day off even though I requested it and made it fully aware that I would be missing out on my sisters 16th birthday, my cousins 18th birthday, AND Mother's Day. After all my explanation I said that I would work on Wednesday and Thursday and even Sunday if I was needed. It ended with me working the next two nights, and having Thursday be my last day.

I got off the phone feeling completely defeated. No matter what I said or what I did, it didn't seem to make anything better. Like I said to him, I don't want to leave there on bad terms or with tension. I don't want it to be left to where I don't feel comfortable going up there for dinner or drinks or whatever. And I don't want my last two nights to be completely uncomfortable...and I really have a feeling that is how it is going to be. Oh well. I am going to go in these next two nights with my head held high. I will work and do a good job and all the while have a smile on my face. I just hate that it came to what it did. I am also completely shocked that my boss hung up on me and treated me the way that he did. I know it is out of frustration, but still.

I just feel bad now.