Tuesday, September 30, 2008
On Campus Today
This morning I got to work early. It was just before 6am when I was pulling into the parking garage and there were people streaming down Virginia Street and through campus heading the quad where he is speaking. I couldn't believe it. I also heard that there were people lining up before 5am! DAMN!
We were allowed to go to see him if we wanted to. I was going to and then chose not to due to having far too much to do. But I wanted to share.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Fabulous Camping Weekend
Saturday morning they both woke up in fabulous moods. They hurried up and got dressed, brushed their teeth and were ready to hit the road. We anticipated the weather being cooler and were surprised when it wasn't cool at all during the day. It was hot! Man, a cool breeze would have felt wonderful on Saturday. We spent a little bit of time getting camp set up and then we all loaded up and were off for a ride out in the country. The kids rode with Papa and Grandma in the "Willy Jeep". You could hear their laughter from a mile away. They had an absolute blast.
They were all smiles. The bumpier the rode, the more squeals you could hear. Poor Papa and Grandma...haha
We were out for a couple hours cruising around and we came to this one canyon. I am so enthralled with pictures like the following and how there is just randomly a splash of color on a mountain side. Look how beautiful!
He was tuckered out! What a sweet precious face that is!
The kids were out exploring and Eli and his dad decided to participate. Up on this hill they were able to throw rocks down into the creek. The bigger the rock, the bigger the splash and the bigger laughs and yells we heard from the kids.
Eli, being the adventurous one that he is, caught a lizard (you can't really see it). The kids thought this was the coolest thing ever.
There were all sorts of quad rides. Seth loves going with his daddy...can't you tell from his face?
After dinner the kids still hadn't had enough rides, so Eli and I took them on one last ride for the day.
Look how beautiful the sky was!! The rest of the night was spent around the camp fire roasting marshmallows and eating s'mores. There were no fights when we said it was bed time either. They were all exhausted and slept great. I wish I would have gotten pictures of them all bundled up in their sleeping bags. There was no way they would get cold!
The next morning was super chilly to start off with. By the time breakfast was done, the sun was out, the breeze had died down and it was starting to get warm. Sunday also dawned Papa's birthday. Here are the babies with the birthday boy!
Sethie giving Papa big birthday loves.
Here are his "guns" to prove it. (and look at the face!...CLASSIC)
Swae getting in on picture time, BUT not wanting to show her guns. She didn't want to show up her brother! :)
And here is me and the sweet boy on our last ride of the day. He is so much fun!
The weekend was excellent. We all had a great time and were filthy dirty to prove it! The kids have already made requests to go camping more. There are more pictures from the weekend, but they are on Eli's moms camera.
I hope everyone else had a great weekend! Happy Monday All!
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Miss Frizzle
Thank you though for stopping by. Check back tomorrow. I will be posting pictures of the great weekend we had with the kids. :)
Friday, September 26, 2008
...and my heart broke
Last night, the kids, Eli, and I were all sitting down at the dinner table eating as a family (like we always do) and we were all talking. The kids were already bathed and just needed to eat. Something was said along the lines of needing to hurry so we could cuddle and that is when Seth asked, "We get to sleep here tonight?" He had the biggest smile on his face. I said, "No sweetie, tonight you have to go to your mom's." And then...
"But I just want to stay here with you guys." ...and a total sad look on his face, close to tears.
This is something that has been happening more and more. And it isn't just coming from him, but Swae as well. It is so sad. I had to pause and then I told him that tonight he would be with his mom and then we would pick him up and he gets to be with us all weekend. This used to make it better, but it isn't working as well anymore. In fact, Swae is starting to ask more and more questions. The latest being, "Why can't we stay with you and daddy and you guys take us to daycare or school in the morning?"
It just kills me. They aren't stupid and with Swae getting older, she is becoming more and more smart and vocal about things. I love those little ones so very much and hate to see the look on their face when we have to tell them they aren't staying with us. And I know it hurts Eli - although it makes him feel good to know that they want to be with him more. They ask all the time for us to call their mom to see if they can stay. We have done this a few times, only to be told no, so we don't even try anymore. How sad is that? They can stay other places, but not with their own dad. It is just truly unfair and I am so tired of seeing the kids being the ones that hurt.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Could It Be!!!!!!!!?????????!!
It was the most wonderful, incredible feeling I have ever had. It only makes me want to feel it more and more. And be that much more excited for the feelings to come with the bigger my little one gets. What a memorable day today is. Eli is excited too. I can't wait til the baby starts moving to where he is able to feel it too...and the kids! I can just imagine their faces and the excitement they will have!
Ah, I am one happy momma right now.
15 weeks 4 days
Last night we were having dinner and Seth kept reaching over and rubbing my tummy and then he said, "I'm gonna get my baby out now so he can sit by me." He is the cutest little thing ever. Of course, Swae had to banter back telling him that it was her baby and that its as a girl. I am so curious how the one will react when they learn that the baby isn't going to be what they want!
I have noticed this week that I am starting to be even more hungry. I find that I am snacking all day for the most part. Good thing Eli and I have been to the store and I am able to reach for healthy things. I have craved Taco Bell and Jimboys a couple times. Yes, I know that isn't healthy. But it isn't all the time. I am still trying to drink tons and tons of water. I try to do it more during the day and taper off at night so that I am able to sleep through the night.
Oh and I just found out that one of my friends is pregnant...4 1/2 months pregnant!!! She has been keeping it from everyone. She still hasn't gone in to find out what she is having yet, but will be doing that soon. Funny, she was pregnant at Kara's wedding and we didn't know. She is almost exactly a month a head of me. I am a little bummed because she doesn't live here anymore and it would be so fun to have someone I am close with close to me and be able to do the mommy thing with. I have other friends that have kids, just not someone that close. I am so excited for her. She was telling me that she has been so sick and how jealous she is that I wasn't. I can't wait to see her belly and keep up with her pregnancy from here on out!
Alright, I am back to work now.
***Well shit, I just realized today is Wednesday and not Thursday which is when I normally post my belly picture. Damn! What the hell happened to my brain today??***
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Mmmm Coffee
Today, I am looking forward to after work...going and picking up the little ones from daycare and showering them with love and affection. Not seeing them for five days is tough and only having them for a few short hours tonight seems so unfair. We will however make the most of it like we always do. I do enjoy so much our family nights. I am looking forward to our weekend with them as well. We will be taking them on the last camping trip of the year and so far from the plans, it should be nothing short than fantastic. I can't wait.
Hope everyone has a wonderful Tuesday.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Reoccurring dream
Sluggish Monday
I got a comment (not on blogger) from a friend the other day about how I need to eat more after seeing my latest belly shot. The funny thing is, I am eating a lot. I told Eli's mom about the comment and she was like, you are constantly eating. I just chose to eat healthy things. I am not reaching for the sweets. I am enjoying eating fruits, veggies, granola. I just felt...hurt I guess. I know it is so easy for people to judge what someone is doing, especially when you have a child or children of your own. But it made me feel for a minute that I was doing something wrong in this pregnancy. And then I racked my brain about all the food that I do eat and I felt better. I realize I am not showing, but that is just how my body is made up. That doesn't mean that I am not being healthy for the baby because it is quite the opposite. I am just not carrying the same way that she did nor gaining like she did.
I love getting suggestions from people and advice. And while I know her comment was made because she cares about me and the baby, it just got to me. But I do know it was made out of love. I am really trying here to do the best for this little one growing inside me. And I am definitely not stupid enough to starve myself just to try to not gain weight or show. It's actually quite the opposite. I am ready to show and have a little bump. But it will come in time...in its own time.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Grilled Cheese
Later that day I was talking to Eli's mom about the weekend and she was telling me about restaurants that are close to where we are staying and the one that POPPED out was Mimi's Cafe. I almost fell over. How ironic that I was craving their grilled cheese and then I am being told that we will be eating there. I was happy to hear that. However, it hasn't filled my little craving I have.
I had some vegetable soup for lunch, but that just didn't cut it. So I called one of the great guys that I work with and he is on his way, right now, to get me a grilled cheese. Such a sweetie. Sad that it won't be from Mimi's, but it will be a grilled cheese and maybe then my tummy will be happy and content.
Hungry Friday
In other news, a friend of mine (who is actually my friend's ex-girlfriend) found out she was pregnant...but the baby could have one of two daddy's. Her ex (my friend) is praying it isn't his. She is about 7 weeks along. So far she has been a mess. She had to come clean about what she was doing, which didn't go so well. Right now she is super scared of doing it alone and just wants one of them to take care of her. I couldn't even imagine. She has been super cute emailing me to ask how my pregnancy is going and then asking me questions since she is right behind me. I definitely don't know everything, but give her advice based on my personal experiences and those that I have read from every one's blogs. I got an email this morning saying that she is feeling really fat and has already gained 8 pounds and is just eating constantly. I didn't really have anything to say to that other than to eat when hungry and just try to make the best choices that she can. She is just feeling blah. We saw each other last week and she was saying how good I look and I don't want her to compare to me. So I was sure to let her know that everyone carries different. Every pregnancy is different and her body will do what is good for her.
I mean, I look at other people's pictures and I have seen people that were double what I am. Comparing me to everyone else would make me go freaking nuts! And we don't need that at all. It just makes me feel good to know that she has someone to turn to because most of her girl friends won't have much to do with her now that she is pregnant and what was going on came out. Granted I think it was wrong, but she still needs support. I couldn't imagine being pregnant and having my friends not be there and then not having support from anyone else.
This weekend is going to be another busy one. We are headed to California to a trap shoot. It should be fun. I am looking forward to getting out of Reno and seeing something new. I just want to get some sleep! I don't have to worry about eating good because Eli's mom makes sure that happens and they are coming as well. We also will be off camping next weekend. It seems like we are always on the go! It seems like forever since I have been home on the weekend! Oh well, we are enjoying what is left of the warm weather and making some great memories. Plus, I am sure I will be dwindling down in the energy department, so I need to enjoy it while it lasts!
Thursday, September 18, 2008
14 weeks 5 days
I went in to get my nails done yesterday and got made fun of because they say I don't look pregnant at all. I however think I am starting to show, even if it is super small. There is still a little bump there. The weeks are flying. Maybe it has to do with how busy I am between work and my personal life. Regardless, it has been great. I feel great and have energy. I have been crashing at night, which is a good thing. There have been a few nights that I have made it through the night without having to get up to pee. I love this and know that it will be very short lived. So I am cherishing these nights while they happen.
I was reading yesterday that my little one is 3 1/2 inches long and weighs about 1 1/2 ounces!!! I am still waiting to really feel pregnant, but still enjoying every single day. Every day I make a conscious effort to eat healthy and enough for me and the little bean that is growing inside me. And I have been forcing myself to drink a lot of water. I should probably try to drink more. At least I am trying.
My mom and I were talking last night and she was telling me that she wants me to go in and get professional shots of my belly every week as a gift from her and my dad. The last picture would be of me holding my little baby. She already talked to the place and they said I could bring Swae and Seth in with me during my 8 month shoot and they would shoot the kids with my belly and not charge us an extra sitting fee. I couldn't get over how special and priceless such a gift would be. Having Swae and Seth included meant the world to me. I want them to be a part of this and feel special and excited. So that is something that I think I will be doing. It will be something I will always have and be able to look back on. That is priceless.
Alright, I am off to eat some cereal and maybe an English muffin. Have a great day everyone!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
What a Day
Being a person short means more duties being added to my already very full plate. I do feel very honored being given more things to do because I feel that my employers feel that I am capable of taking on a heaping plate and are confident in my ability to get the job done. Anxious for the day that lied ahead of me, I was up early and to work early. Getting there early ensures that you are left alone and in that short amount of time, it is insane the amount of work that can be done. The day started out great. By 7am I was doing great and already had two projects done. By 9am, I was half way through a daily task that I do (but was a day behind on due to yesterday being crazy). Then there was an hour break for a staff meeting. This meeting was about changes being made due to budget and then reminded everyone how they should be treating each other and our customers. We also discussed how the work would be distributed. It was then back to work and I barely stopped to eat. That I had to due since I was pregnant. If I wasn't, I probably would have worked through forgetting all about eating until I left the office and finally realized the hunger pains I had.
I left the office feeling great. Very productive. Such a great feeling. It is so nice when you feel like you are accomplishing something. To me, that gives me something to look forward to. It helps me get out of bed the next day to do it all over again. It makes me want to stay extra hours just to accomplish that much more. I love seeing progress. I love meeting the goals that I set for myself.
After my day, I was tired. But it was a good tired. I took a small nap and went to my parents for a nice family dinner. It was perfect. And then I came home to the most wonderful man that I have ever known and feel in love all over again with him. He didn't do anything special. All he did was wrap me in his arms the way only he can and nuzzle my neck. My heart melted and I fell in love. It was the perfect way to end the day.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Potty Training
We had another break through over the weekend. I know some people that put kids in diapers at night or the night time pull ups, but to me that just seems like a security blanket. If they don't want to get up and go, they don't have to and know it. This weekend, there were no diapers, no pull ups. Just big boy undies period. I did take precaution and put a thick layer of toweling down. But it wasn't needed. There wasn't an accident during nap time nor during either night. I was a little worried about Saturday night since they were so tired, but even then, he was a big boy and no accidents. It worked out so well and when he woke up in the morning and realized he made it all night, his face was priceless and he got to tell me what a big boy he was and that he didn't need night time pull ups.
I am so proud of him for making it this far. Good boy Sethie! Daddy and I are proud of you and we love you so much.
Family Filled Weekend - Trap Shoot & Virginia City
The kids with Grandma.
Papa loving on the kiddos. They were giving him good luck!
Seth playing the part. Always has to be just like his daddy.
He was all decked out. It was so funny. He ended up losing the glasses, but wore the belt and the shell holder the rest of the day.
I love his 'new' smile. It frickin' cracks me up.
Swae getting in on the action. The glasses came off as soon as the picture was over.
Eli and his dad shooting together. Damn he is sexy! ...Jr that is! ;)
They were getting ready to do the ceremony and Seth wanted to be with Papa. They introduced Eli and his sister, and then the 3 1/2 grand kids. How cute is that!?!
Eli's mom and sister. Rhonda is amazing. She travels all over with Eli's dad and supports him. I love seeing the love the two of them share. She lives for that man and you can just tell how much she adores him. She is definitely his biggest fan.
The monkey being a monkey during the ceremony.
Saturday was a long day out in the sun. But it was well worth it. When we got home I threw Swae in the shower and was floored at how black that little girl was from dirt. She scrubbed and scrubbed with the soap to her herself clean and then I had to help scrub her more. Once they were both squeaky clean, it was relax time and then bed time.
On the train waiting for their ride. They were definitely excited.
A family picture taken by Eli.
The next are just some sites we saw along the way.
There was still so much we wanted to do, so we will be going back up there to hit the things we weren't able to do. We weren't even in the car before being asked if we could come back. Oh how I love them and that they are as adventurous as Eli and I. We all have a blast together. It was cute. We were on the way back to town and Swae was telling me why we had to live here and no where else. Her main reasons were: camping, fishing, the lake, and all the fun we have. Gotta love the sweetness of it.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Belly Shot 13 weeks 5 days
It gets very overwhelming to me when I think about having a little baby inside me cooking and growing. To know that the little being in me was made out of love and affection and is part me and part Eli. It is truly a miracle and I am just so blessed.
Yesterday's Appointment
So, seems the little one is just cooking away, which is fantastic. I was able to finally find the DHA capsules I have been looking for, so I got a couple months worth I have read nothing but great things about DHA and am so happy that I was turned on to them. I will do anything and everything to help this little one in any way that I can!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Our Outing Over the Weekend
We got up toward our spot early afternoon, so I had him stop the truck so I could snap a few pictures of the country. Where we go is pretty much in the middle of no where...and it's just perfect!!!
Lot's of desert.
We got to our camp spot, unloaded and were off on a ride to check out the country and see if the little doves were still in a spot we found them since they are now in season for hunting. Our friends riding in the back of the Willy.
The ride in that Willy was the roughest I have been on in quite a while. The terrain we were traveling was so rough and rocky. My body was jarred around and the whole time I just was praying that it wasn't affecting the baby negatively. Everyone keeps telling me the little one is safe and secure, but my goodness, what a ride!
We got up to the spot where all the dove were only to find that hunters had already been there and flushed them all out. And without going into detail, they definitely lucked out while there. Eli and I hiked around for a bit while our friend and his son went their own way. We got back to the Willy and we relaxing and I asked for him to snap a picture of us. Because he loves pictures so much, this is what I got!
The ride back to our camp was just as rough as on the way up. It took forever to get back. I did get a couple nice pictures of the sun going down.
The moon wasn't so bright yet, but it got bright that night. And the stars up there...amazing! They are so bright and there are so many. I just lay there before going to sleep watching them and taking them all in. It is just too beautiful for words.
There is the beast of a Willy that we drove around. That thing is so old and still runs like a champ. It was so much fun.
And the gun racks are so convenient!
The weekend was great, as usual. We enjoyed the company we had and enjoyed a long hot shower when we got back home. It is so beautiful where we go, but there is no way of staying clean at all. It is worth it though and we will be going back in a couple weeks with Eli's family. I can't wait. I am sure we will have good pictures from that trip!